Friday, April 30, 2010

Brace for impact

So i finally got my head out of my ass and decided that i can't fully trust anyone at work so i went ahead and reported my store manager to HR. Now all i can do is be ready for whatever repercussions this may have. I am not trying to get anyone fired but this cannot go on with out a third party doing some sort of investigation. Also i am trying to cover my own ass i have a family and a son to feed and i need my job i know that i could easily get another one but i for damn sure am not trying to get fired over something stupid like someone with a personal grudge. On Monday my mgr sat me down and "talked" to me about the free drink thing with my husband but not once did she ever say to me that she was going to write me up. I mean maybe she was but we got interrupted and she wasn't able to squeeze it in but today (Friday) she decides that she needed to write me up and make it official and document it...why 4 days later? And that Thursday a partner called her on the telephone telling her that she maybe need to sit down with me because something was wrong with me and they were "concerned" about me. Like really? Can't i even go one day with working with Alice and not have to have a sit down because someone feels "concerned" about me! Fuck that these people don't care about me in that way. The only friend i have there is T and she is almost gone starting her career.I just know that now that everything is out on the table i feel a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest and all i can do is defend myself and stay on point! I can't let these petty people have a hold on me i will rise above this!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Who are you gonna believe?

Today i began to put together my resume in hopes of pushing myself to look for a new job. I've been with Starbucks for 5 years and i am not sure really if i'm trying to hold on to it because i love what i do or is it because i am too scared of being rejected in the stone cold job hunting world. I am i am qualified for other better paying jobs yet i stay at this hell hole i call a job because i have worked so hard to get to the position i am working on. I for damn sure calling HR i just don't know wether i should use my name or not. Maybe i should just file a claim on her and not really tell them everything at once and let the ball get rolling because she won't know who did it and start to stick her own foot in her mouth, Today T told me that work actually went really good and that AL was being really super nice to her and telling her she missed her and it was just an over all good day aside from the typical drama with the two queen bitches. I mean both of these girls are about a useless as a single sock. They work yes they work but as far as being genuine or sincere neither of these girls posses these qualities. AL must keep them around for entertainment because they most definately pick fights with just about everyone who works there. Well maybe I should think on it for one more night tomorrow mos def will tell and friday too, because she is off tomorrow but works friday i think..either way i need a whole work week with her and see if it really is me that she has a problem with because if so i am going to report her to HR & to the RDM as well as our DM, i will lay everything and my job out on the table because the higher ups really need to know what crap goes on at this store.

Aside from work my home life is going pretty good, we just got cable for the first time in like 6 years! I am stoked i have no idea what to do with all of these channels! hahah i know its lame and sad but this makes me happy :) I mean we completely paid off our TV & laptop and have actually had room in our budget! Emery is growing along nicely he is 8 months old and has two bottom teeth and it super silly already! What a bad kid he is :P. This is all for tonight i have big issues to sleep on.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

What to do

For the last 5 years i have peddled coffee for one of the largest coffee companies and i have never had a problem. I find myself a very delicate situation, i have recently come into some very hurtful news. a co worker and dear friend of my called me on the phone in the middle of grocery shopping and unleashed all of this news on me about my manger. I was told that my manager was in a very strange mood and was trying to comfort her and in this conversation she told her a lot of very unprofessional things. She told her how she was glad on of the partners was almost gone and that she couldn't stand her. Then she started on me saying how she couldn't stand my voice or my face and that i was so annoying and that when i am not there things go smoothly. She also went on to say that she hates when i show her or people pictures of my 8 month old son and that it annoys her. Apparently i am the root of all the drama at the store and that everyone has a problem with me and she wants to transfer me out of her store. When i caught wind of all of the things she was saying about me i was floored i couldn't believe what i was hearing. This is the same manager who is training me for an ASM position and i work really closely with her all of the time and not once has she ever displayed some sort of hatred towards me. I am absolutely hurt by all of this and i don't really know what to do at this point. I want to call human resources on her and complain but i am not sure how this will all turn out. Upper management usually sticks up for each other. Maybe i'll sleep on it for one more day.